-tears like rain-

i realised, its hard studying wifout my boy's encouragement. =( perhaps, there's sth heavy on my mind that's y its so hard getting to remember stuff for my xams. sigh sigh. i wonder how he is now~ *worried*

Saturday, had a short shoppin wif my parents b4 heading off wif my boy's parents to Royal Plaza on Scotts Hotel to celebrate his grandma's birthday. it was a buffet dinner! =) we were one of de late ones, cos of a mini jam :/ it was a fun nite out tho, not forgetting snapping fotos everywhere we wen! lol~ see u all on Chinese New Year! hee, we'll tk more pics again ya? *smiles* [pics up later wen Jolyn has send me de fotos! =)]

my boy wasnt wif me physically, but you are in my mind okie? *hugs* i noe his mum is worried as well, and i dunno wad feelin i shld be feelin (does it makes sense?) as he's been calling me only, and not his parents =( he called dem once, on de day of his arrival thats all. sigh~ i can only reckon 2 reasons: 1. by the time he calls, its already v late (like 12+ going 1am). and he aint really allowed to tok at tt pt of time. 2. overseas calls r expensive. usually we tok for bout 3-5 mins only.

sigh~ i cant help but b really bothered by all these small stuffs. its affecting me, and i wonder if im doing a right thg by being wif him. after all, parents are stil more more impt than gf rite? *sob* de fact tt he's de only son, makes me feel worse. no doubt his parents & relatives hav been treating me v well, u noe, there's a female instinct tt tells me sth is jus not quite right? *sigh* how many ppl will actually understand how i feel..? *sob*

these nites hav been hard. cant sleep well [i even tried counting sheeps !] often waking up in de middle of de nite. =( *cries* its been pouring n pouring non-stop, and my tears are just like rain, pouring like there's no ending to it :/ i tink rain is just like my best friend :(

will our fairytale depict an ending..? there's many things i wan to say, many things i wish to tell u, many things i wan u to noe~ i cant wait for u to get back, dear. *cries* You're my fren, my lover, my soulmate..